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Thursday, August 11, 2005

So Pai Seh ... ...

J was telling me to remind her to go parkway after work to collect something. I was thinking, "Cool .... so I should be accompanying her later... haha" But her friend called after lunch to ask her out. Anyway, was thinking she should be meeting her friend somehow at parkway then ... So my heart sank. But realised later that her friend was actually asking her out for another day. My hopes rose. Then towards the end of the working day, she asked another common close colleague, N, to go parkway with her. N did not want to. J tempted her with an ice-cream treat and did not work. So I was thinking, "Cannot let her ask me first right ..." So being thick skinned, I told her to treat me to ice-cream then. She said she don't want. N laughed .... .... Then I was like ... so malu .... heng, not many people around at the time .... So it was getting later and later. She decided to call her friend to go parkway with her, but her friend was too busy with work. So in the end, she said she would treat me to ice-cream .... .... My heart sank to the lowest point for the day .... You asked 2 people to go with you but they can't. Then I "offered" myself but you don't want .... Now 'cos nobody to go with you, so you are settling for whatever is on the plate lah .... In the end, go with her lor .... After settling her stuff, had dinner at the foodcourt .... then went to buy some lotion for herself .... We ended chilling out at the Mac Cafe .... There, we chatted many things .... at one point she asked if wanna watch the Dim Sum Dollies on Sat .... What? Did I hear wrongly? I had been asking her out for dates for donkey times and was rejected everytime .... So I asked was it because she has an extra ticket .... She said she was watching with friend. And mentioned something about the show almost fully booked .... And you still ask me ....????!??? I'm lost ... What do you want huh .... Please tell me .... Then she also mentioned she intend to hold her birthday celebration next month, probably inviting her close friends to some pub .... Then she would be flying off for her holidays immediately the day after her birthday .... Is she hinting something ....????

She wanted to buy something from Bengawan Solo tomorrow to treat her friends on Friday. Since she didn't treat me to any ice-cream 'cos we were too full and "Scoops" did not have many nice flavours left, she said remind her to buy the kuei lapis from Bengawan Solo tomorrow and she would treat me to ice-cream again .... Hmm ... so that means we should be going out again tomorrow .... *cross my fingers* .....

Somehow, I had a feeling that she at least had something for me in her heart. Maybe it is growing .... Maybe my mind is playing tricks on me again ....

I was wearing a new shirt from Zara, quite nice she said .... Asked where I bought it ... told her to guess .... She guessed Zara after a few tries .... She knew I usually wear G2000 shirts ... hahaha ... so she asked how come suddenly buy from there .... Could she be finding out if I had shopped with another girl? Ah .... feel like expressing my feelings to her ..... soon .... feeling that the timing is ripe now .... maybe God will kindly present an opportunity for me tomorrow and open up my eyes to recognize, grab it and turn it into gold? I think she must have known my feelings all along .... just that I have not expressed to her .... I don't know how she really feel for me .... But all I ask is for a good chance to tell her "I like you" that's all .... just to let her know .... I won't expect any immediate or delay reply since it's understandable .... regardless, we are still colleagues, we are still friends so don't expect any response .... the aim is to let her know of my feelings for her .... at least la. 'Cos I already know from another source that I am not in her rankings at all .... ....

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